Have I not done the right thing to succeed? Am I asking too much to live my life simple? Why is it so hard to just live simple?
Why do I keep making mistakes over mistakes, new ones again and again? Why why why?
3 months in China was not really fantastic, and I came home with zero again! It's now looks like I got to start all over again, and I really don't know how.. what should I do?
I have not chase for having millions in life, I don't have big dreams.. All I wanted was to live life simple. I don't have to worry about living monetary, I have a place to call my own, I can send my girl to extra classes that she likes, Am I asking too much? Have I not done enough to deserve that? Why do I keep failing?
I think I know the answer, but how do I really get over it? How do I now start over again? It's really depressing, but with the girl with me now, I know I can't give up. Maybe let me take a few days of hibernation, and I should come out again.. It's sad that I need to start all over again, I have cause some disappointments among friends that supported me all this while..
I felt sorry and ashamed now..
To all my family and friends that have supported me, I AM SORRY!!! Deeply SORRY!